We met with our local oncologist this morning and while the news wasn’t as good as we would’ve liked, it certainly wasn’t worse case scenario either. But really, the only news we wanted to hear was that this was all a huge mistake and that they were sorry!!! So all in all, we’re considering ourselves lucky.
Essentially, this is just not something that we can cure. The good news, if there is ever good news when it comes to cancer, is that the oncologist we met with today is hopeful that we can control this cancer with monthly injections of a drug called Octreotide and that Chris will lead a long, normal life. How long? They don’t know. Which is the worst part about all of this. This cancer will be following us around the rest of our lives, but at least we were told to continue living that life as normally as we are now. Obviously there are some changes ahead of us. No more drinking or smoking. We’ll be making dietary changes going forward. And perhaps the biggest change, or adjustment, for us is getting used to the idea that Shane will be an only child. Which, for me at least, is a tough pill to swallow.
Are we happy with the news we got? Yes. We certainly feel better today than we did yesterday. Are we still terrified of the future? Sure, but isn’t everyone? But the fact that we were told that we have a future, together, is all the hope we need.
Thank you all for your prayers. Please keep them coming over these next few weeks while we continue gathering information, meeting with doctors and forming a treatment plan. We’re going into NYC on Wednesday to meet with specialists from Sloan-Kettering and from Cornell. We could use all the support we could get and we’ve certainly got a great support system behind us.
We’ve learned a lot about ourselves, about life, over these last few weeks. A scare like this makes you realize what’s really important. Suddenly you just don’t care to make room, or time, for all the bullshit anymore. Priorities start to fall in order and living takes on a whole other meaning.
For that, and for that alone, I owe thanks to cancer.